Wesley arrives in Georgia

"Saturday, 7.—Mr. Oglethorpe returned from Savannah with Mr. Spangenberg, one of the pastors of the Germans. I soon found what spirit he was of and asked his advice with regard to my own conduct. He said, “My brother, I must first ask you one or two questions. Have you the witness within yourself? Does the Spirit of God bear witness with your spirit that you are a child of God?” I was surprised, and knew not what to answer. He observed it and asked, “Do you know Jesus Christ?” I paused and said, “I know He is the Saviour of the world.” “True,” replied he; “but do you know He has saved you?” I answered, “I hope He has died to save me.” He only added, “Do you know yourself?” I said, “I do.” But I fear they were vain words."

In reading this passage from Wesley's journal, I find it amazing that Wesley has decided to embark on a treacherous journey across the sea to preach salvation to the heathens, yet he is uncertain about his own standing with Christ. It appears that he has an academic knowledge of Christ, a head knowledge of his salvation, yet he is uncertain whether he has any personal heart knowledge of his salvation. He seems to know a lot about God, but he doesn't seem to really know him personally.